the janellius

Been tagged by Marianne..:D

2006-06-23T21:09:00.000+08:00

First, you state the rules of the game. And the rules are:

1. State the rules.

2. Make your list of "6 weird things/habits"

3. Pick 6 people you wanna tag and have the world see their names at the bottom of the list.

4. The 6 people you tagged are gonna have to write an entry about their list.

6 Weird HABITS/THINGS about JANELLA:

1. Lagi kong iniisip yung past..most of the time, the embarassing moments. Then I end up cursing myself ALONE (and aloud) in public.

2. Mahilig akong mag-imagine. Then I end up laughing out loud ALONE in public (again). Wahahaha.

3. Mahilig akong magpacute sa harap ng salamin...mwahaha. Deh ahh, smile lang. ;p

4. I don't know how to be angry. Or at least act like one.

5. I'm very sentimental. ;p Even a simple scratch paper can mean something to me. Weird.

6. Gusto ko lagi akong may dalang panyo.

I tag: Jelle, Angel, Sarah, Giselle, Jasper.

I miss my hair

2006-06-19T18:59:00.000+08:00

Wahahaha!

"Janella, ikaw ba yan?!"

"Bakit ka nagpa-unat?!"

at syempre..ang di nawawalang pagbati sa akin..

"Bully!"

hehe.

Bakit nga ba ako pumayaga sa kagustuhan ng aking ina? I want my hair back.

Sabi ko, pagupit lang eh, pero konti lang. Tapos ayan na. hayy. Pero babalik naman sa dati eh (sana).

Anyway, the best part was seeing the reaction on their faces. ;p

-__-

2006-06-12T14:02:00.000+08:00

Plano ko pa namang burahin na ung mga blogs ko para wala na akong dahilan para magtagal sa internet. Ayoko na sanang masyadong mag-internet.

Kaso.. sa webdev ako napunta.

Aww.

dito nakasasalalay ang future ko..

2006-06-08T20:49:00.000+08:00

Or not really. Exaggeration. Haha.

Ano'ng kukunin kong elective?

1) Robotics

Actually, first year pa lang ako sa Pisay, eto na ang napili ko. Bakit kaya? Maybe because of the name. But seriously, mahilig akong magbuo ng kung ano anong mga laruang gumagalaw. Meron kaming beyblade, crush gear, tamiya, yoyo--you name it.(di ba dapat Ba El ito?) Lahat ng nausong laruan. Hehe. Pero baka wala daw..sana hindi. :(

2) Pop Law

Yeah! Haha. Since I first had the subject called Sibika when I was in grade 1, na-incline na ako sa Soc Sci. Talagang itong subject na ito nung grade school ako ang pinagbubutihan ko. Haha. Akin ang best in Hekasi from grade 1-6 (except nung grade 5):p And until now, pinagbubutihan ko pa rin naman. (really?) There was even a time when I wanted to be a Lawyer, and now, I think it's coming back. Pero bawal maging lawyer! Haha. (At maging presidente ng Pilipinas! Joke. Ako pa! Eh ayaw ko ngang maging leader sa mga group projects eh.)

3) Advance Chem/Math 6 (na malabong mangayari)

Ang Chem, hindi talaga pwede. At least 1.25 ang required grade sa Chem 1. Awww. Eh 1.5 lang ako. Sayang. Sa Chem, Comp Sci at Math lang naman ako interested eh. Tapos Math 6..parang di ko kaya. Pressure siguro..eh di naman ako ganun kagaling sa Math. Baka bumagsak pa ako. Hehe.

Pero sana yung chem.. pagbubutihan ko naman eh. Naka 1.25 naman ako nung 3rd qtr ahh..pero bumaba lang nung 4th. Sayang talaga.

Hayy. Gaya ng sabi ni Clariza, "Parang walang patutunguhan ang buhay ko kasi wala pa akong mapiling course." Haha!

...

2006-06-04T16:08:00.000+08:00

The following articles are from Newsbreak.

'Sink or Swim'

‘Pisay’ graduates are accused of overconfidence and academic delinquency in college

Fading Glory?
Congress may be sacrificing quality for quantity in pushing for more science high schools

A Matter of Religion
The Opus Dei ‘invades’ the Philippine Science High School. Should this be cause for alarm?

kapag tumatanda nga naman o..

2006-05-30T16:08:00.000+08:00

sinong mag-aakalang ako'y thrid year na..

ang bilis ng panahon.

parang kailan lang at ako'y nagbabahay-bahayan pa..

at maraming mga katanungan.

parang kailan lang at ako'y wala pang crush..[hehe]

o interest man lang sa ibang tao.

parang kailan lang at ang mga pinag-aaralan ko ay di pa ganoon kakomplikado.

ngunit ngayon ay iba na.

ngayon ay mas komplikado na.

maaring ang iba kong mga katanungan ay nasagot na..

ngunit ang mga susunod ay mas nagiging mahirap pang sagutin.

haha.

wala lang..

gusto ko lang sabihin na..

Sodium Ako!!!

Hmmmm..

2006-05-26T22:50:00.000+08:00

Di ba dapat ang bagay na username sa akin ay..

hindibully?

Nyahahahah! ;p

Anyways, ang susunod ay isang nakakaaliw na survey..na galing kay angelica.

1. inaaway mo ba yung guard sa gate ng school nio pag nde ka pinapapasok?
>> besfriends ko nga eh. hehe. ;p

2. lagi ka bang nalelate?
>> hindi ahh..6:30 ako dumadating palagi. :D

3. complete uniform ka ba lagi??
>> minsan, naiiwan ko ang ID ko. T_T

4. sumusunod ka ba lagi sa school rules?
>> anong rules? ;p oo ahh. lalo na ung major offense na No bullying. hehe. ;p

5. kumakanta ka ba ng pambansang awit at school hymn?
>> minsan. pero kung kakanta ako, pabulong. ;p

6. active ka ba sa klase??
>> hyper-active oo.. ;p

7. nakikipagdaldalan ka ba?
>> nambubully, oo.. hehe. :D

8. hinaharass mo ba teacher mo?
>> depende. nyahahaha. ;p

9. Nagpunta ka na ba sa prefect's office dahil sa kabalbalan?
>> hindi pa naman. ^_^

10. napahiya ka na ba sa klase?
>> uhuh. T_T

11. napahiya ka na ba ng teacher ng klase?
>> nung grade school ako.

12. gumagawa ka ba ng assignment o kopya lang?
>> minsan oo. minsan hindi. ;p

13. kumakain ka ba tuwing break?
>> oo...ahaha. ang taba ko na nga eh. :D

14. ano first line ng school hymn niyo?
>> Philippine Science High...

15. Naging medalist ka na ba?
>> as in DL? opo. :D at sa grade school din.

16. nangotong ka na ba sa classmate mo??
>> hmm..para sa project, oo. ;p

17. natutulog ka ba sa klase??
>> hindi. nakakatulog lang. ;p at nagpopower nap. ung mga 3 seconds na pipikit.:D nyahaha. para di makatulog.

18. pumapasok ka ba sa ibang room kahit mei klase sila?
>> hindi ahh.

19. nagdadala ka ba ng pagkain sa room niyo?
>> lagi. nasa bag nga lang. ahaha. ;p

20. anong pinakamahirap na subject para seio?
>> Chem at CAD at TSK. T_T

21. anong pangalan ng school mo?
>> Philippine Science High School

22. naaksidente ka na ba sa school mo? anong klaseng aksidente?
>> well, di pa naman ako nadudulas o nadadapa..

23. anong pinaka-memorable part ng school year?
>> lahat! ;p yung WotE..madami eh. ung great wall?

24. pinakagusto mong subject?
>> bio. geom. algeb. hmm.. val ed ni ma'am sarmago!!! ;p socsci din.:D

25. meron ka bang bading na kaklase?
>> uhm.. puro nga kami babae eh. [nyahahaha];p

26. anong oras natatapos school hours niyo?
>> 4:10 pm

27. masipag ka bang mag-aral?
>> depende sa teacher. ;p

28. love mo ba high school life?
>> syempre naman. :D ;p

:p

2006-05-25T22:11:00.000+08:00

Sorry Mikee, but I'm for Gerald-Kim. Or Gerald-Brenda pair.

Haha.

Alam niyo ba, kabatch natin si Mikee Lee. Incoming 3rd year din sya sa Ateneo.

Wahaha..at kabarkada sya ng dati kong classmate na nasa Ateneo din ngayon. Close sila.

Eh di ang saya.

Sorry rin Juan Carlo..hehe. :D

^__^

Practice your clicking skills...

2006-05-15T21:38:00.000+08:00

..by clicking this link: http://www.kingsofchaos.com/recruit.php?uniqid=7252ugzm

Hehe.. :D

Pleeeaaasssse?

Why I Love Google

2006-05-11T14:05:00.000+08:00

Just a sharing...

Have you ever tried googling the word "sinungaling?"

Try it.

The first result is the website of the office of the president. However, if you'll click the site, you will be redirected to a blog of young activists.

I love the flat world.

Nyahahaha. ;p

^___^

2006-05-06T03:05:00.000+08:00

nyah.

6 months na walang violin classes... -_- :((

namimiss ko nang mapagalitan ng teacher ko dahil di ako nagprapractice. hehe.

tapos kinacram kong pag-aralan yung mga assignments nya sa akin pag lumalabas sya sa room.

tsk tsk..kahit saan talaga, crammer ako.

tapos di ko pa natuloy ngayong summer kasi wag daw muna. oo na rin ako. kasi pagbalik ko, patay na naman ako. nyahaha. nakalimutan ko na. [well di naman]

pero gusto ko sana ulit. kasi ang bano ko pa sa violin. gusto kong mas maganda pa yung pagtugtog ko. yihee. nyahaha. :D

lalo pa ngayong na-iinspire ako sa Yellowcard. lalo na kay Sean..na napakagaling magviolin at idol ko na next to Suzuki. :D

nyahaha.

dapat na yata akong magpaalam sa mga pag-aasam ko na maging magaling sa violin. :(

deh joke lang. kaya pa yan. ;p

kapag sobrang bored ka na...

2006-05-06T02:48:00.000+08:00

blog ko: di mo na ako inuupdate... :((

me: wala naman akong mailagay eh. yaan mo, buburahin din kita. [nyahahaha]

blog ko: hayy. bored ka na nga. get a life.

me: ang boring naman kasi ng summer eh. walang school. :(

blog ko: di boring ang summer. sobrang dami lang ginagawa sa school.

me: oo nga..

blog ko: oh sige, burahin mo na lang ako. :D

me: deh joke lang yun.

blog ko: na di mo na ako buburahin? :D

me: hindeh..

blog ko: eh ano?

me: joke lang na buburahin na kita ngayon. yaan mo, sa pasukan na lang kita buburahin. ;p

blog ko: ...

;p nyahaha.

and she wished those didn't happen

2006-04-28T23:53:00.000+08:00

now she's thinking

why did these happen.

funny how the courses of our lives lead us.

who arranged the sectioning ba kase?

hehe..

like what someone said,

"when heaven wants you

but you don't want heaven"

she knows it..yes she does

she knows you were,

the nearest to heaven she can ever reach

now you are killing her

she is killed by the thought of you

poor her. poor me.

'cause I was her.

a shocking discovery

2006-04-25T15:25:00.000+08:00

whatta!

Did you know, na kapag sinearch mo ang Janellius sa google, may lalabas sa unang result na janellius.livejournal.com???

Wahh..oh noes. Hehe. Ibang tao yun. Hindi ako yun.

[iba ang username ko sa livejournal...hehehe]

galing 'to kay jelle..hehehe

2006-04-08T20:45:00.000+08:00

[music "Miles Apart" by Yellowcard]

so what's the meaning of my name???

janella

n. alco-pops, often cheap.

"Dude, check out the janella!"

ngek.

Doctor Unheimlich has diagnosed me with Janellius' Disease
Cause:	viral
Symptoms:	loss of dress sense, seeing dead people, dry mouth
Cure:	wake up and realise it was all just a dream
Enter your name, for your own diagnosis:

nyahaha. may ganyan ba kayong sakit??? hehe. :P

My spammer name is Abacus E. Grayson.

haha..kahit di ako spammer, may spammer name ako..haha! :D

eto pa..

them who rocks with the violin rocks

2006-04-06T22:11:00.000+08:00

[music "Gifts and Curses" by Yellowcard]

Finally...

..a band for me.

nakakamiss magklase

2006-04-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

[music "Bakit Part 2" by Mayonnaise]

May naalala ako..tungkol sa Bio...

Bakit nga daw ba imperfect fungi ang tawag sa mga fungi na Deuteromycota?

Kasi wala silang sex life.

Hahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!

Nakakamiss magklase.

Nakakamiss magtawanan.

Nakakamiss magwalk-out.

Nakakamiss magcram.

Nakakamiss umakyat-baba sa mga buildings.

pero higit sa lahat...

Nakakamiss mambully!!!

Nyaahahahahahaha. :P

labo-ness post #3

2006-04-05T21:43:00.000+08:00

[music "Sugod" by Sandwich]

Kanina...lumabas kami.

"Class outing part 2" kuno.

Pero apat lang kami.

We are a class.

Grabeh.

Hehe.

Pero okei lang yun.

Masaya naman.

Nanood kami ng isang movie.Tapos nag-arcade.

Tapos nagracing kami ni Kuya Edineille.

At natalo ko sya! Yeah! Haha.

Tapos...namili ng bintana.

In short, window shopping.

Tapos ang mga pinapasukan namin sa SM eh mga bilihan ng bala ng gameboy, PS2 and the like. Hehe.

So ayun.

Isa pa sana. Ung madami na ha. Hehe. :P

Para sa mga tulad kong nagdadalamhati dahil card giving ngayon...

Everything is gonna be alright

Be strong. Believe.

-"Believe" by Yellowcard

it's been two years

2006-04-01T11:49:00.000+08:00

[music "Couldn't Ask for More" by Edwin Mcain]

These past few days I was able to see my old classmates, my old school and everything of it. I had to attend my sister's graduation kase last thursday and one of my batchmates also invited me to watch their recognition day last wednesday. A lot has changed in my school. A lot has changed in us too.

Wednesday [03.29]. I visited my school for the first time after 1 year.(?) Sabi kasi ni Ray recognition daw nila. So sige..pumunta naman ako. And yeah, andaming with honors sa kanila. Haha, congrats! Tapos sila pa yung mga di ko ineexpect kasi nung grade six kami, hindi sila active masyado. And another, may with Highest honors pa! Pero transferee. Wahah..sabi ko sa kanila, shame on them..hehe, joke. Pero honestly, that was what I really felt nung nalaman ko na ang top 1 nila ay isang alien. But more than that, I was envious. Habang pinapanood ko silang sinasabitan ng mga ribbons, naiinggit ako. Ewan ko ba, pero naisip ko tuloy , "...siguro, kung nandito pa ako sa SSA, makakaakyat din ulit ako sa stage at sasabitan ng ribbon..siguro hindi na ako nahihirapan ng ganito..di na siguro ako magpapakahirap para lang mapunta sa top 10, kahit na hindi na ako ang top 1." Yeah. Ganito talaga kapag ikaw ang top 1 and suddenly bagsakin ka na lang pagdating sa Pisay. Hayy. Bakit nga ba ako umalis doon eh maganda na ang buhay ko? I went to hell. Kidding. Haha. Tapos noong sinabi ko yun sa mommy ko, ang sabi niya "..ipagpapalit mo ba ang lahat ng opportunities at magandang education sa Pisay dahil lang sa pagiging selfish mo?.." Although di yan ang exact words, it hit me that way.

Thursday [03.30]. Graduation ng kapatid ko! Yeah. So nagpunta na naman ako sa 'tone. haha. Actually, nung nagpunta ako doon, ang main concern ko ay pakinggan ang guest speaker at ang valedictory address. Hehe. Evil. Deh joke lng...syempre para panoorin ko ang kapatid ko. Hayy. I realized na namimiss ko pala ang mga ganitong ceremonies. Naalala ko tuloy nung graduation ko. It was one of the best days of my life. For the first time, naging proud ako sa sarili ko. Ang evil ko nugn araw na yun...hehehe. And the guest speaker during my graduation made me proud too. Sabi niya, "..I remember nung naging valedictorian ako, I only had one medal. But now, the valedictorian has a lot." Yeah. Thanks to her. So I was on my way to hear the guest speaker of my sister's graduation. And guess what??? She's a Pisay alumni!!!! Yeah, batch 2001. She's Rachelle Ureta and she graduated salutatorian in SSA. I wonder if Sir Mardan knows her although he's batch 2000. Ang galing nya grabeh. I was wowed..^_^ Biro mo, SUMA CUMLAUDE sya sa U.P., at B.S. Mathematics!!! Yeah. Go Anthonians! I'm proud to be an anthonian. Sana, I'll end up like her. Although she was honest enough to tell na when she graduated in Pisay she only had a diploma in her hands. Idol!

Saturday [04.01]. We had a sort of 'reunion' na around 10 lang ang pumunta. Haha. Pumunta kami sa despedida ng isa naming old classmate who's in Ateneo right now and is flying to America for good na. Yeah. nagkita-kita kaming magkakaklase after 2 yrs. Sila pa yung mga nagtransfer na rin sa ibang school. There's another one who's in Ateneo and another in Quesci and another in Mater Carmeli School. Tapos syempre ako, na taga Pisay. Wala nga si Lorenz eh..sayang. Haha, para dalawa kami. Anyways, I was speechless. Literal na speechless. Wala akong makwento..haha. A lot has changed in them. Feeling ko nga, ako na lang ang hindi tumanada eh. Isip bata pa rin ako ngayon. Akala ko, worst na yung mga nakikita ko sa Pisay na mag-on pero sa SSA din, meron pala...sa mga batchmates ko. Oh well, that's part of growing up. Pero nung nalaman ko ang mga bagay na yun sa kanila, naisip ko tuloy na lalo kong ayaw na mainvolve sa mga ganung bagay pa. Lalo kong narealize na bata pa ako. Yeah..hehe.

But after these past days, I realized more. I learned how lucky am I still to be in Pisay. Narealize ko na mas gusto ko pa rin sa mga nerds na kasama ko. Haha! I realized how much I missed my classmates in Pisay at kung gaano pala mas masaya dito. And heck, bakit ko naman ipagpapalit ang standards sa Pisay di ba? There's more for me in here.

i am who i am

2006-04-01T11:29:00.000+08:00

[music "View From Heaven" by Yellowcard]

You Are 30% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

You Are an Emo Rocker!

Expressive and deep, lyrics are really your thing.That doesn't mean you don't rock out...You just rock out with meaning.For you, rock is more about connecting than grandstanding.

What Kind of Rocker Are You?

You Are 30% Weird

Not enough to scare other people...But sometimes you scare yourself.

How Weird Are You?

labo-ness post #2

2006-03-28T18:55:00.000+08:00

[music "Eddie Song" by Mayonnaise]

bakit nga ba??? T_T

bakit parang bawat araw na dumadaan ay malungkot..

ako'y lumulungkot pa tuloy...

at hindi ko alam kung bakit.

hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit.

"do you miss me?"

hehehe...

"no you don't."

"ouch! T_T"

hehehe..

ang labo ko talaga...

bleh.. :P

labo post #1 by my alter ego

2006-03-25T17:51:00.000+08:00

[music "Don't Wanna Think About You" (again) by Simple Plan]

Heh. Di ko pa rin nasasabi sa mommy ko.

Oh noes! Haha...Yoko na maging sad ulit...See the song? It's "Dont wanna think about you". Yeah! I will really not...Don't want my summer to be hell thinking about you. And besides, meron naman na syang iba eh. I want my summer to be productive...and for that to happen, I need to let go...like in Buddhism.

So, does that mean, no more crush? Why not! Haha, last year I've overcomed my old crush...so I better do the same. Yeah. Move on. Pero di ganon kadali yun...unti-unti. Sana di na magkaroon ng bago. I better get myself busy with summer classes..or anything--sports, PS2, games! Yeah..sports! Basket all day...haha, pero iitim ako lalo...uhh.

The result of my grade made me malabo today..haha. A life changing event for me...i think. Gusto ko maging tulad ng dati. Walang iniintindi...kundi studies. Ack. Being a teen has added another problem in my life--crushes. haha. Kaya back to my 12 yr old days...wohoo! Ang fun! What am I saying? Kaya nga labo post eh. Hehe. Gusto ko magburn ng calories this summer...not sure about my violin lessons...parang ayoko muna. Tsaka ung tanglaw..bka di na rin...awww. :(

...

Sarah: "Ang init sa Pilipinas!"

//end labo post

the saddest day of my life

2006-03-24T18:08:00.000+08:00

[music "Gone" by Switchfoot]

Gone. Everything is gone. Everything has gone away from me. Lahat...ang pangarap ko...ang kaibigan ko...lahat. :(( Ang lungkot lungkot talaga. Bakit ba ganito? Life is so unfair. Kasi kung hindi, lahat sana pantay-pantay. Bawat isa sana, masaya at nakukuha ang gusto nila. Pero hindeh! Kasi ang buhay ay madaya!

Sa araw na ito, nagpatong patong ang problema at bad news. Sabi nga ni Jasper, "ang araw na ito ay parang ang araw kung saan ako ay pinagsakluban ng langit at lupa." Para bang hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko, magagalit o iiyak. Pero siguro nga, emotional breakdown, napaiyak na rin ako kanina. Di pa naman ako palaiyak. Tapos may isa pa akong dati pang pinoproblema. Hayy..

Hayy. Ewan ko ba, I've always looked on the opportunities and the lessons from all these problems naman eh...pero sa mga ganitong oras, kung kailan nagsama sama lahat ng problema, wala akong ibang magawa kundi sisihin ang sarili ko...kagalitan ang sarili ko dahil sa mga nangyari. Siguro nga naging confident ako...kasi last year, umabot ako. Tapos ano pa? Nagcram ako...cram...cram. But didn't I do my best in every test? Even if I just crammed studying it, at least, kahit kailan, hindi ko shinotgun. Kung shinoshotgun ko man, tinitignan ko muna ung choices at tinitignan ko ung pinaka most likely answer.

Ah basta...kailangan ko pa sigurong palipasin ito ng ilang araw. :(

aww

2006-03-23T18:58:00.000+08:00

[music "Don't Wanna Think About You" by Simple Plan]

Di natuloy yung lakad namin kanina. :( Awww.

Haha...pero ok lang yun. :D Nakapaglaro naman ako ng maraming mind games kanina sa Math Unit. Gusto ko ng ganun! Hehe..aliw. Tapos may nagdemo pa kanina na teacher sa Pinoy, eh kailangan ng students. Eh di syempre, pinasali kami ni Miss Edulan...haha.

At isa pa...nakasama ko si Edineille for a halfday! Kaya masaya..hahaha. :P Kuya Edi, heartrob!

kilos of papers

2006-03-22T20:09:00.000+08:00

[music "Crazy" by Simple Plan]

Alam ko na tuloy kung bakit sandamakmak ang papel sa kwarto ko...

Napaka-sentimental ko pala kase! Haha...takte...stupidness..haha. :P

Ayaw ko itapon kahit na scratch paper...haha. Poor me. Nag-ayos kasi ako ng gamit kanina since end na ng klase.

my internet-ing rituals

2006-03-22T12:57:00.000+08:00

[music "Online" by 6 Cycle Mind]

I just realized something...

Meron pala akong habit everytime I go online.

And that is bloghopping.

Since my homepage is my own blog, it is easy for me to hop because of my links. Haha. After opening Y! Messenger and seeing who's online, bloghopping na. And then if there's a mail, read. Then friendster. Then create a new post if I have time and if I'm in the mood. Haha.

Dati, Y! M lang...seeing if _____ is online. Or anyone else. And now, because of the blogging craze, I have another thing to do to stalk...and that is again, bloghopping. Truly, the world is flat.

Who knows, blogging may be one of the most powerful tools for globalization.

and i can't find the air

2006-03-22T11:52:00.000+08:00

[music "Barely Breathing" by Duncan Sheik]

"Cause I am barely breathing..."

Yeah. For the whole year, I've barely breathed so much like this. I have no more time to breathe because of all the requirements in school. But now, I have nothing to do but to get in all the air around me. Hehe...joke. I'm finally cleared and now I'm just blogging and bloghopping. I've fixed my blog too..

Now I can sleep 24/7. Or finish Midnight Club 3 na. Or simply be idle. These are the things I've been dreaming to do for the whole year. Especially during the Perio week. But now...Now that the remote control of the TV is in my hands, and that no school homeworks will stop me from pressing the power button, and no school requirement will stop me from sleeping too, I feel like not doing it.

What I want to do now is to see Adelfa! My classmates! Pisay! But not to do school works but to play. And have truth or truth sessions...or some Joke Times. Or simply to bug Sir Mardan and Sir Martin and other teachers. I want to bully! And be bored in the grandstand, ang aming tambayan. I want to feel the heat of the sun and play patintero...be young again! Na walang pinoproblema kase wala nang homeworks.

The funny thing about wanting something is that, when we actually get it after a long time and hardwork, we will realize that we want more...or worse, we will realize that we like the old times more. :D

i'm cleared!

2006-03-21T20:50:00.000+08:00

[music "Only One" by Yellowcard]

Haha. Sa wakas, pwede na akong maghibernate.

Pero patutulugin ba ako ng grades ko? Never.

Wahh. Grades, grades, grades. Sabi ko na nga ba. Goodbye dreams... Di na talaga ako aabot. Kayo na lang ni Iel, Jape. Kayo na lang ang makakabalik doon. You know what I mean. Ack. Physics kase...grr. Yun pa naman ang isa sa mga subject na ineexpect kong tataas..pati English. Argh.

Anyways...haha, andami kong nalaman kanina. A lot of codenames! Hehe...and more stories untold. Nalaman ko na may "past" pala si ganito kay ganyan.. Nagkuwentuhan kasi kami kanina.. At kanina rin, sa grandstand, ang aming tambayan...nagkaroon ng so-called "lovers' lounge." Hehe. Eh kasi, nagsama sina... *toot* hehe. Haha...hmmm. Pero actually, sa batch, Adelfa lang yata ang walang mga lovers...or ka-relasyon..or whatever you call it. Ang bait namin noh...hehe..Joke lng.:P

Wait...eto na lng...about my birthdate..

Your Birthdate: March 12

You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame.
You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them.
Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing.
You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship.
Your strength: Your charm
Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics
Your power color: Indigo
Your power symbol: Four leaf clover
Your power month: December

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

to bully for geisha

2006-03-20T18:52:00.000+08:00

[music "Lights and Sounds" by Yellowcard]

"...Janella Salamania bullied her with 205 BC..."

Woah. I'm a real bully. Oh noes! Hehe.

Anyway, the line was from Sir Martin's blog. Hehe. He told what happened a while ago in the auction. Yohoo! Nakakuha ako ng libro! :p I got Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden! Asteeg! I used my bullying abilities to get this book. Haha.

Actually I like all the books. If I only have the BCs, I'll get them all! Especially the State of Fear because I love sci-fi and Betrayals of Public Trust. Of course, I would also want The Lexus and the Olive Tree and The World is Flat by Friedman. 1421 is also fine. I picked the geisha book because I was afraid that I won't get anything anymore after I have seen how much BCs others have (because I was late, I saw the others' BCs). Wahh...others even have 300+! If I only have the money...

At least I have more to read this summer..and the clearance week. I also want to read my Sherlocke Holmes...na nabubulok na sa room ko...hehe. :P

Anyway, kanina...masaya pero stressful. Ack. Grabeh, I crammed and procrastinated my TSK documentary. We went *away* from home. Grr. Wrong timing talaga yun. Kaya tuloy di ko nagawa ng maayos. Di ako natulog kagabi! And until now, my head is spinning because of tiredness. Hooo...

Haha... Uy, adelfa! Labas tayo this week! Hehe...arcade daw...sama kayo! :P

muahahahaha

2006-03-13T18:39:00.000+08:00

[music "Bring Me to Life" by Evanescence]

Oh noes.

What can I say. Na-touch ako...Hehe. Thank You Miss Doplon!...Di ko kayang magreply sa email nya...Mamimiss din namin kayo! Pero di pa ito ang farewell post ko... :D

March 12 kahapon...so what? Hehe... deh joke lng. Birthday ko! Wohoo..14 na ako...bleh. Uhh...di ko na sila matatawag na "ate" at "kuya". Pero tatawagin ko pa rin. Na-eevil na ako!..hehe.

Tapos...wala ako sa bhay nung birthday ko. Nasa bahay ako nila Sir Martin! :D haha... Nag-EK kami nung saturday! Yohoo... Ang bilis nga ng week-end eh. Siguro mabilis kasi ineenjoy...with Adelfa! Yeah..mahal ko adelfa..mahal na mahal. Kaya kahit wala ako sa bhay namin..mas masaya kasi kasama ko kayo! :D At ginulat nyo pa ako ah...hehe. Binigyan nila ako ng masarap na chocolate cake! Salamat! Hehe. Ito ang isa sa pinaka memorable at masayang birthdays sa buhay ko...hehe.

Time to start a new life...new year...new experiences...to make my life happier..or worse...But I know...from all of these, I learned... and I will learn. I will meet new people...get into touch with them...but i'll never forget the people I knew from my 13th year...and from adelfa. Kayo ang mga taong nabully ko...hehe...nabully ako...Kaya kahit na hindi na ulit mauulit ang dati...kahit di na tayo magkakaklase...at bka di na kita makakasama pang muli...habang buhay kong dadalhin ang mga memories...muahahaha.

Naks. Wahh...kaya ayokong tumatanda eh. Andaming nagbabago. Eh sabay pa sa birthday ko ang end of the year..awww..

Pero ang lungkot ko nung gabing iyon. Bakit kaya? Hehe. :D Ikaw kasi eh...

//Happy birthday sa akin. :D

anime promotes violence

2006-03-01T19:55:00.000+08:00

[music "Bakit Part 2" by Mayonnaise]

Yihee... Wee. Oh yeah. ang topic ko ay ang title sa taas. "Anime promotes violence." Oh yeah.

Wish me luck.

Anyways, tapos na ang soc sci synthesis ko! Wohoo. Oh yeah. Meron akong narealize nung ginawa ko ito... Uhm.. Since this is a major project, todo research talaga. Kaya..napilitan akong magbasa...magreseach...at magbasa ulit. Hehe. I actually spent 3 days just reading in front of the computer. It took me 3 days to internalize all I read! Wah...kaya one and a half day ko ginawa yung project ko, pero di tuloy tuloy. Hehe. Eh di syempre, basa ako ng basa. Narealize ko lang...ANG PANGIT NG WRITING STYLE KO. Hehe. Narealize ko na hindi kagandahan ang mga gawa ko compare sa mga sinusulat ng mga writers na binabasa ko. Awww... Parang ang boring lang kase ng gawa ko...di tulad ng iba...di ka talaga mabobore kahit na sobrang serious ng topic nila. Wahh...how I wish magaling akong magsulat. Tingin ko nga, ako lang nakakaintindi ng mga essay ko eh. Hehe. I wanna improve...go me. hehe.

Sige...hanggang dito na lng. :D

you are a friend of mine

2006-02-27T11:00:00.000+08:00

[music "Friend of Mine" by MYMP]

Yes you are. But only a friend. Nothing more than that. Haha. :D Ang labo.

The line...

You tell me things I've never known,

I've shown you love you've never shown..

But then again when you cry,

I'm always at your side.

You tell me about the love you've had

And I listen very eagerly..

Deep inside you'll never see, this feeling of emptiness. It makes me feel sad.

But then again...I'm glad. :D

Mwahahah...ang labo ko. :P

once again in turmoil

2006-02-27T10:23:00.000+08:00

[music "Ang Ating Araw" by Dicta License]

No more classes again. The good thing about it is that I can improve my synthesis paper and do other requirements...and rest at least for some time. But other than that, no more.

Let me take it from Angelica's quote in her blog (which is from our Soc Sci class :D): A man's terrorist is another man's fighter. But for me, if this fighter of mine terrorizes the whole country, then better not. :D I shouldn't be selfish. Kasalanan ko naman kung bakit tumambak na ang requirements ko. Hehe.

Anyway...haha. I've been doing my synthesis paper for four days. Wahaha. :D But honestly, I like this project. Hehe. Ang saya. Ang dami kong natututunan. I read more. Hehe. :D

Back to work now. //

while rallies are happening outside

2006-02-24T08:59:00.000+08:00

[music "Kailangan Kita" by Orange and Lemons and "Hand In My Pocket" by Alanis Morisette]

oh yeah. habang nagrarally sa labas, nasa bahay ang mga iskolar ng bayan para gumawa ng requirements. hehe.

walang pasok! yoohoo.

but of course not. hindi kita makikita! hehe..di masaya. okei pa magcram basta makita kita. hehe. ano ba ang sinasabi ko. this is for you:

"pero kung may trip ka nang iba, ok lang."--Kailangan Kita by ONL

hehe.. di ahh..wala po akong crush..bata pa po ako.hehe. deh joke lng. tatanda na nga ako eh. nakakainis naman. di ko na tuloy matatawag na ate ang iba. :( di ko na mabubully.

tapos uhm...uhm..may nabasa ako tungkol sa isang tao. eto masasabi ko sa kanya, "ikaw, ikaw kasi...ang manhid mo." hehe. ahhh! ang labo ko na. wooooooo...

ahahahahaha! di ako makakapambully ngayon. :P ang labo.

past midnight rants

2006-02-20T01:40:00.001+08:00

[music Alipin by Shamrock]

actually, andami kong trip na music ngayon. again, there was a burst of beautiful songs in the opm music scene. nanood kasi ako kanina ng Fanatic Banda Republic kaya andami ko na namang nalamang kanta...hehe. :P

anyway, ako ay nagbloblog ngayong 1:46 am dahil hindi ako matutulog para gumawa na ng chem portfolio ko. hehe. hmm...what's a nice topic. aha..

okay...so this week was another intervention on our regular classes. achievement test last week. at tulad ng sinasabi ng iba, ang achievement test ay isang long test. at tulad din ng comment ng iba, isang kalokohan ang tawagin itong achievement test kase nag-aral yung iba para dito (kasama ako) dahil nga long test. dapat ang tawag eh, "achievement for a night test." well ganun talaga. sabi kasi nila, hindi raw sineseryoso ng mga estudyante yung test kaya ginawang long test.

anyways..tama na ang achievement test. itong week na ito..ay patintero sessions week din. haha. meron kaming patintero after ng achievement test. dapat kasi gagawa kami ng val ed proj, pero di naman lahat pumunta kaya ayun.

but more than that, marami na palang nangyayari sa pagitan ng mga classmates ko. in short, issues between friends. how i wish na maayos na nila yun. second time ko na yatang makaencounter ng ganyang case nila. ang masasabi ko lang.. boys are just boys and they are just everywhere. but a true friend is hard to find and hard to have. kaya sa inyo, huwag kayong mag-aaway dahil lang sa crush ahhh. there are more things worth fighting for.

andami ko ring nalamang iba pang bagay tungkol sa iba ko pang mga classmates dahil nga sa patintero..hehe. :P crush ni ganyan...story ni ganyan. haha. ngek.

eto pa. nagcomment ako sa blog ni dea. hehehe...dea, basahin mo..ahaha. hindi ako yung nagsulat nun...deh joke lng. :P nagulat lang kasi ako kasi si dea pala ung isa sa mga maaring makarelate sa akin. siguro dahil pareho kaming monkeys! ahaha...unggoy...1992. ahaha. :P

speaking of unggoy..malapit na pala akong tumanda. whoops...ayoko pa! bata pa ako...hehe. :P

sige...hanggang dito na lang.. =D

an early valentine post... :p

2006-02-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

May isang magandang passage ang nakasulat dun sa labas ng Bio Unit...

"Love knows no reasons
Love knows no lies...
Love defies all reasons
Love has no eyes...
But love isn't blind.
Love sees but does not mind."
~anonymous

Oh di ba...astig! Yohoo...wohooo...tapos na YMSAT...ack. Wahh...ang lapit na ring matapos ang klase...AYOKO PA!!! ahhhh......

Ayan...tingnan nio sa Bio unit...hehe :P

truth or truth sessions...atbp.

2006-02-09T21:09:00.000+08:00

Hehe..."truth or truth sessions with Sir Mardan"...astig.

Grabeh...nakakadalawang sessions na kami...hehe. At ang mga usapan namin ay mostly tungkol sa kaheartrobban ng mga tao tao...tulad ni angel (since sya ung nandun). Haha! Astig..lalo na kanina...ang 2nd session namin.

Si sir..ginamit niya ang kanyang proving skills sa geom at nilista nya ang lahat ng mga nagkakacrush kay angel...sabi namin, "sir, infinity yun." tapos sabi ni sir, "eh di one to zim." (gets?...hint: si zim ang lahat. therefore, zim=infinity.) hehehe...ang bully!!! nahawa na sa amin..

Tapos nahahawa na rin si sir sa expression ni edineille at ng adelfa...haha...tulad ng:

"levelling..."
"na-eevil ka na"
"positive"
"heartrob!"

at lahat ng ito ay sinasabi in edineille style or accent...haha. all with the matching hand movements ni Chan chan...haha. :P

pero bago namin ilista lahat ng nagkakandarapa kay angel...naglaro muna kami ng "Bawar Sumirip" na gawa ng mga 3rd yr doon sa 4th floor...hehehe. Ack. Nanalo si Angel...sabi ni sir nakakasurprise daw...haha...ang sama! Bully na rin si Sir..hehe.. :P

Pero originally...itong truth or truth sessions ay para malaman kung sino ang crush ng isa't isa na sumasali dito... Presently...may mga 4-6 na tao ang sumasali...sina angel, max, jk, mark, iel...at ako..hehe.

At sa lahat ng ito ay marami akong nalaman...hehehe...*evil grin* haha...joke. :P

Wahh...bukas di ako makakasama...hehe:P Astig si Sir...hehe...galing, aliw, etc. :P

i have a green heart

2006-02-05T18:19:00.000+08:00

Your Heart Is Green

bgcolor="#fffafa">Love completes you, but that doesn't mean you seek it out.When love comes your way, you integrate it peacefully into the rest of you life.
Your flirting style: Laid back
Your lucky first date: Walking around aimlessly and talking
Your dream lover: Is both enthusiastic and calm
What you bring to relationships: Balance

What Color Heart Do You Have?

trivias about JANELLA

2006-02-05T17:46:00.000+08:00

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Janella!

1)Janella is the only one of the original Seven Wonders of the World that still survives.
2)If you cut Janella in half and count the number of seeds inside, you will know how many children you are going to have.
3)Janella can be found on a Cluedo board between the Library and the Conservatory.
4)Plato believed that the souls of melancholy people would be reincarnated into Janella.
5)Janella has only one weakness - the colour yellow!
6)The moon is 400 times closer to the Earth than Janella, and 400 times smaller!
7)Janella was first grown in America by the grandmother Maria Ann Smith, from whom her name comes.
8)Women shoplift four times more frequently than Janella.
9)On average, women blink nearly twice as much as Janella.
10)Worldwide, Janella is the most important natural enemy of night-flying insects!

saying easy things hard

2006-02-03T21:54:00.000+08:00

Oo nga. Tulad nga ng sabi ng iba...at ang tingin ko nga rin... Ako nga ay inassertive talaga.

Hayy. Ako nga ay inassertive (or unassertive). Kaya ako ganito...di ko masabi...wala akong masabi...ayokong magsabi. Noong nagBull sessions nga kami...sabi nila sa negative side ko...di ko raw sinasabi kung galit na ako. On the other hand, di ko rin sinasabi kung ano ang nararamdaman ko.

Sabi nila...a friend is a solution. You need someone daw whom you can trust...and to and tell all your feelings in. Kung totoo man iyon, siguro mahihirapan akong makahanap noon..kasi nga...unassertive ako.

Oo na...oo na. Mahiyain na ako...tahimik...di assertive...parati na lang oo ng oo. Naaalala ko noong grade school...laging comment ng teachers ko sa akin...tahimik...ung mga ganun. Kung icocompare mo nga ako noon at ngayon, ang laki na ng improvement ko eh. Pero bakit ganon? When it comes to serious and most personal things, di ko masabi...kahit ung opinion ko minsan. Siguro, sa mga classmates ko...sasabhin nilang...ang saya saya ko...joker...bullier...hehe. I think that's only a side of me. Ito yung jolly side ko...ang childish side ko. Ewan...ganito talaga ako. Di kasi nadevelop sa akin ang confidence... :(

Eh di lalo na sa feelings ko...di ba??? Ang hilig ko pa namang magsabi ng mga bagay...tapos...akala nila natutuwa ako sa sinasabi kong pang-aasar ko sa dalawang tao..pero bawat 'yikee' ko...nasasaktan ako. Hehe.. never mind! haha...:P dpat la nang ganyan ganyan..:P

Ahh! bakit ko ba sinasabi 'tong mga 'to...Siguro kasi...isipin mo...sinasabi sayo ng taong yun...ung crush nya...tapos aasarin ko pa di ba?...to make the crowd laugh too...How nice...

At di lang naman un eh... sa iba pa...sa mga projects...etc. Minsan, ang totoong dahilan kung bakit pumapalpak ang group works ay dahil di ko mautusan ang mga kagorupmates ko...ako na tuloy ang gumagawa ng lahat. Kaya nga ayokong naglileader sa kahit ano eh. Kahit kailan hindi ako naging officer buong buhay ko.

Pero ito lang ang masasabi ko. Lahat ng mga jokes ko...mga wide smiles...and loud laughs..lahat yun totoo. Yun nga lang...sa likod nito, meron palang mga kalungkutan. :(

history is repeating itself on me

2006-01-28T18:38:00.000+08:00

Yeah. History is repeating. Bakit? Eto.

Grades.

Ack. Umulit ang grades ko sa 3rd qtr nung first year. Ganun pa rin. Lang ya. Ano ba namang buhay to. Ang alam ko...mas ginagalingan ko this 2nd year. Pero di ganun ung results. Ganun pa rin.Para bang di umiepekto ang mga paghihirap ko. Hayy. Madami ngang tumaas sa grades ko this qtr...pero madami ding bumaba...Grar. My life is a joke...joke...joke. Ahhh! ayoko na. Galit yata sa akin ang mundo. Di ko na yata maaachieve yung hinihiling ko...na maretain man lang yung final grade ko last year. :(

Pero may good part naman. Although maraming tumaas sa grades ko...at marami ding bumaba...mas madami pa rin ang tumaas...woohoo. At...top 2 na ko. Bleh zim! :p haha. Karma yan. :P History repeats itself...di ba yan din ang nangyari last school year??? Hehehe. :p Pero kahit na...malungkot pa rin dahil yung mga pinaghirapan kong subjects na tumaas, hinila lang ng ibang subjects pababa. Konti lang ang tinaas ko!!! Crap. Crapper.

Siguro nga...bobo talaga ako. I'm not the intelligent type. Di ako kagalingan sa math. Kahit sa sciences. Oh sa essay writings like english, pinoy at soc sci. Lahat ay tsamba lang yata sa akin. Peste. Tsamba lang nga siguro ung first year. At di na ako makakatsamba pang muli.... :((

Ah ewan...gusto kong umiyak...gusto kong magwala...pero di ko magawa.

Gusto ko na lang sanang pabayaan ang lahat...at di na umasang makatop pa...ngunit hindi ko talaga kaya. :((

I dream. Everything's a dream. Like the sun in the sky. Mahirap nang marating...mapapaso ka pa para lang mahawakan ito. Exactly like my dream.

Tests.

Tapos nung friday, nag math intersection kami. Just like last year. At tulad last year...ASA pa akong makasali dun. :( ASA...ASA...ASA...parang ung theorem...ngeh...corny. Grar. Ah basta.

Would I end it here? Should I stop my dreaming? Eh para naman kasing walang nangyayari eh. Kahapon nga rin...sabi ko sa mommy ko..."parang di na ako makakatop ulit...:(" Uhhh.

I don't really want to think negatively. I was never like that. I know there is still a chance for everything. Kaya nga ginagalingan ko pa this year. And so it is normal for me to get depressed with the result of my grade. I want to think positively again. Pero just think, ginawa mo na ang lahat...way better than before...pero ano? eto lang! konti lang ang tinaas...just because of......Sino ba naman ang di mawawalan ng pag-asa nun????

Sino?

i am BLACK

2006-01-28T18:21:00.000+08:00

This is from Tickle. Ung mga tests, etc dun...

Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

Yeah. I am black in color...physically and inside...hehehe. Joke. Tama naman yung result ko ahh. :P Hehe.

Kabanata 24 ng buhay ko..."Mga Pangarap"

2006-01-19T21:27:00.000+08:00

Ahahaha... di ako sure kung chapter 24 un ng Fili. Ah basta.

Hmm...mga pangarap. Well, not really. Mga gustong mangyari siguro.

Kanina lang...nagbabasa ako ng Science Scholar. Sa wakas, la kasing time eh. Di pa rin ako tapos actually. Tapos...I just realized na matagal na rin akong di nakakahawak ng isang school paper. Naalala ko rin na matagal na rin nung huling beses akong nagsulat sa school paper ng dati kong school.

Hmm. At nang maalala ko ang lahat ng iyon, naaalala ko yung times when I was also joining those journalism contests. Though I was only given one chance all my life...at sinira pa ng magaling kong teacher nung elem. Nadisqualify ako dahil na late kami sa kagagawan nya.

Ayoko nang maalala yun...pero dahil nabasa ko ung mga nanalo sa division...di ko maiwasang malungkot sa nasayang na chance para sa akin.

I dreamt that someday I'll reach NSPC in photojournalism...kahit talo pa...basta umabot sa national level. Pero anong ginawa nila...pinagkait sa akin. Grrr. Andami pa namang mga ka batch ko ang nkaabot dun. Tulad ni Clariza...photojourn din sya...tas umabot sya sa national. Ahaha...sayang.

Pero honestly, I'd say na talagang ang bobo ko sa writing noon, kahit kasali ako sa staff ng school paper. Kaya nga nalagay na lng ako sa photojourn eh...wahh.

At ngayon..

Gusto ko sanang maging photojournalist kahit na di digital ang camera ko.

Gusto ko sanang maging member ng Science Scholar pero tingin ko, di ako ganun kagaling para doon. At di na pwede...

Gusto ko rin sanang makasali ulit sa mga presscon outside the school.

Gusto ko rin sanang maka sali sa kahit na anong contest outside school...kahit di manalo. (Well, wag na lng siguro sa math.)

Gusto ko pang tumaas ang grade ko.

Kung pwede, manalo ako sa kahit anong contest inside school.

Kung pwede rin, ayoko munang magka-crush.

Gusto ko nang maging future-minded para mas focused na ako. (Pero sabi nila, sa college pa dapat un.)

Dapat mag-concentrate pa ako...

pero higit sa lahat...

ASA pa ako na mangyayari lahat 'to!!! (well ung iba pwede..)

naghihintay sa isang pagkakataon...na 'di na darating pa

2006-01-16T20:19:00.000+08:00

[current song_ "Sayang" by Parokya ni Edgar]

lagi naman kitang nakakasama...

ewan ko kung bakit wala pa ring nagagawa...

kahit na napakadali mong kausapin...

ewan ko ba kung bakit mahirap pa ring aminin...

madalas naman tayong naglolokohan...

dinadaan ko na lang sa biro...

ang tunay kong nararamdaman

kaya siguro, hindi mo sineryoso...

aking mga sinabi..yan tuloy walang nangyari...

and now it's over...is it?

2006-01-11T20:51:00.000+08:00

I usually consider myself the type of person who proves the others wrong.

Many times I've done that, really. I remember, when I was in elementary, my teachers always discouraged me and chose their co-teacher's sons or daughters. Isn't that unfair? But look at me now. Who's the valedictorian anyway? Who's gotten into Pisay now? And who's getting to the DL? See? I want to see their faces now! Woohoo. They thought I'll never make it here. So I did my best to do even greater than that. It is my pleasure to do so-to prove them wrong.

As I said, many teachers of mine did not believe in me. One of these teachers whom I'll never forget was my teacher in grade 4. She was my adviser and Science teacher. The thing that I did not like about this teacher is that she always compared us to the batch before us. She wanted us to be as good as them. But hey, we can't do that. Then she said we were the worst batch then. She threw us away, telling that we can't do the same as the 07ers. That really really pissed me off. How dare can she say that. After all, she thinks she was a really good teacher. Sorry to say but she's not. And so from that very day, I sold my soul to prove her wrong. Look! I believe I have reached the farthest among the other valedictorians in our school. I've been in Pisay and even reached the top 15! SSA's 07 valedictorian even failed in the test. Hah! I can't wait to see your face and your reaction, dear teacher of mine.

This is my way of being proud for once in myself. I do not want to brag what I am. I want them to see how good I am. I do not want to say it directly. This way is better to embarrass others..hehe. But hey, it's the truth, and I enjoy doing this.

And now, with what happened today, I think there is a need for me to do the same thing as I did to others. I want to help my section. Of course we're not like that, as what he said. I'm planning to do something. Sigh.

I'm still having 2nd thoughts about it. I wish I have the will to do that...hayy.

Hayy. Sometimes, the sound of revenge just fuels me up. I wanna live a life proving people that I can align my resource with theirs. That's the biggest and the greatest accomplishment I wanted to do.

And also, the pain I feel right now won't easily go away. Actually, di ako naiyak at nalungkot noong sabihing tatlo lang ang papasa. Nalungkot ako nung sabihing we are the...you know.

I wanna throw my basket ball right now until I lose all the potential energy trapped in me.

i never really liked 2005 to go

2006-01-02T01:06:00.000+08:00

Here I am again. Kahit madaming requirements, dahil sa kaadikan ko sa blogging...eto.

Ayaw kong umalis ang 2005. Ewan ko ba. Lahat na yata ng magagandang nangyari sa buhay ko eh nangyari sa year na ito. (Really?I think so.) Hehe..

Well, the first good thing that happened to me last year was actually last school year, when I was still a freshie. I think last school year let me have a happy vacation. Bakit? Uhm...wala. Sa grades lang. Di ko naman kasi inexpect na ganun yung final grade ko. Maybe it was just luck. Tsamba lang siguro yung last year! Kaya nga kung tsamba lang yun, ayoko nang mag-end ang 2005. Para siguro sa ibang mga genius diyan, wala lang yun. Kase, kaya naman nila eh...without luck. Eh ako, tuwang tuwa na ako doon noh. Minsan na lang mangyayari yun sa akin noh. Lalo na ngayong 2nd yr? Nako. Asa pa ako.

But I'll look on the positive side that 2nd year gave me in 2005. One of the best things this year is...Adelfa! Wohoo! Hehe. Syempre noh...haha. Mahal ko 'to noh. Kahit na minsan maraming problema, di ko kailan naisip na maiba ako ng section. Kahit mahirap ang second year, masaya naman dahil sa kanila. Hayy. And the coming of 2006 says that we are near to saying goodbye. Kaya ayoko pang mag bagon taon. Tuwing maiisip ko na malapit na kaming maghiwahiwalay, naiiyak ako...hehe. Ngeh, nagdrama.

Hmm...ano pa ba? I guess last year, mas naging maingay na ako. That's good! Hehe. Anong maganda dun? Well...at least mas makakapagparticipate na ako. Mambubully na ako! Hehe. Mas naging bully ako last year. Basta...achievement yan.

Ano pa ba? Basta! Last year, I was happier. Bakit mo nga naman gugustuhing lumipas ang iyong kasiyahan ngayon...na di mo naman alam kung magiging masaya ka sa future.

Siguro nga, ito yung kinatatakutan ko kaya ayoko pang umalis ang 2005. Maybe because I'm afraid that the next year will not bring me something like 2005. Maybe I'm just afraid to let go of those happy moments.

may bagong magpapahirap sa buhay ko

2005-12-29T22:28:00.000+08:00

Ready?

Argh. This thing will tempt me to play. Grr. Kung bakit kasi magtatapos na ang break nang ibigay ito eh. Rar.

And now the game.

I think it's a matter of time management. Di ba?

maraming gagawin pero eto

2005-12-29T01:29:00.000+08:00

Part of the menacing front three, you're a Chaser!
You've got an arm on you, and your job is to
get that quaffle through one of the three
hoops, and you manage to do so nicely.

Which Quidditch position should you play? (Harry Potter)
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Oohh...shooting, eh? Tama. In basketball or any shooting game like soccer, I would choose to be the one giving the point for our team. But I also want to be the defender if ever, most particularly the rebounder.Hehehe. Naalala ko tuloy yung isang line na sinabi ng coach ng Shohoku sa Slam Dunk. "He who controls the rebound, controls the game." Kaya maganda ring maging defender under the ring. Hehe, pwede pang mambully ng mga naglalay-up at nagshoshoot malapit sa ring.

Speaking of PE, namimiss ko na ang PE! Especially Basketball. Wohoo! Nung all girls game pa lang, palagi kaming panalo! Yihee. Pero natalo kami once. Tapos nung odd-even game, talo kami. Odd kasi ako eh. Eh ang daming magagaling na boys sa even. Halos lahat nandun. Tapos si bully pa...hehehe. Eh siya yung pinaka magaling sa girls basket. Sayang nga eh. Yung boys kasi namin eh. Hehe. Pero ok lng naman. Nice fight...hehe. :p

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Which HP Kid Are You?
Ang ganda naman ng result na 'to...hehe..:p

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holidays.

2005-12-24T15:05:00.000+08:00

woot...

ano pa nga ba ang sasabihin ko kundi...

Merry Christmas!!! :P!

hehe...dati...sobrang excited ako 'pag xmas. kase, uuwi mga pinsan ko. pero ewan ko ba, habang tumatanda ako, di na ako masyadong na-eexcite sa christmas. bakit? eh kasi...break. tapos, matatanda na kami ng mga pinsan ko noh. tapos, di naman na laruan ang gifts sa akin...(hehe, isip bata). isa pa, more break means more requirements! oh di ba, ang saya. tapos...di ko kasi makikita ang mga classmates ko...hehe.

pero...it's always fun to celebrate christmas. may kainan, family reunions...etc. but more than that, the spirit of 'giving.'

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P.S. wahhh. wala pa akong nagagawang requirements! hehe. ang tamad ko. oo na. eh kasi naman eh. hehe...=p

crazy questions

2005-12-19T13:39:00.000+08:00

maiiwasan ba...ang bawat sandaling ika'y laman ng isip ko?

maiiwasan bang malungkot dahil ngayo'y lilipas na di kita nasisilayan?

nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na lalong mahulog sa iyo?

maiiwasan bang hintayin kang mag-online araw-araw?

that's why i love school...and hate long breaks. :p

can't stop thinking of my grades

2005-12-11T22:23:00.000+08:00

Oowee. Another post...sheesh. This is what gonna make my break not soo boring. Woah.

Anyway, pansin ko lang, andami na ring nagbloblog. Hehe. Saan ko nga ba nakuha tong blogging thing na 'to. Lam ko last year pa dahil sa english project. Anyway, haven't decided if I'll put my blog's URL on sir Martin's blog. Whoopsie...

Now the topic.

While everybody's celebrating the christmas break, here I am, not fully enjoying it. Why should I? I can't sleep soundly...all because of my grades. Bakit ba ganyan. Ang hirap naman kasi eh. Ang hirap ng second year. Well, I admit, mas mataas pa ang mga grades ko this year during the first and second quarter than last year. But the question is, will I reach the same grade I have reached last year? That question is what makes me sleepless. How I wish that I have a cycle also, just like the dynastic cycle (yiheee...application ng soc sci!). I wish my grade's trend is going up...but it doesn't seem so. Hayy, too much pressure is on me now. Yes of course, I was happy to know that I belong to the top 15 of the batch. Di ko kailanman inexpect yan last year...as in. Before I was satisfied on being in the DL. But now, because of what I've reached last year, I'm wanting more this year. I want to be on that top 15 at least...but now, that image I have drawn on my mind is becoming blurred.

How I wish I was that same person I was last year. Isang taong wala nang hiniling pa kundi ang makaDL. But when I reached that spot, it made me realize that I can do better than what I expected. And so now I'm pressuring myself. I'm not anymore satisfied with being a DL only.

Oh no...but I liked what I am right now. I love my section now. They made me like this. Thanks to them.

of exorcism...and other freaky things...

2005-12-11T21:19:00.000+08:00

Freaky. Scary. Really.

Yesterday, we watched the new movie Exorcism. From the title itself, scary talaga. It's a true to life story of a girl, who was said to be invaded by demonic forces. Woot...scary talaga, nakakatakot. It opened me up to these unnatural forces kuno. Pero convincing siya. It had a good explanation of how exorcism is done and why. It wasn't demonic as one will have on his first impression. Actually, it's more saintly. However, scary because of the effects. Whoo...

But what I liked about the movie is the courthouse. Yup, the courthouse. Where the lawyers fight with their wit and everything. Haha. Kase it was about Miss Bruner to defend a priest who was suspected of killing the girl possessed by exorcism. And they were to prove that those unnatural forces are true and existing (that what makes it scary. cause what if they were true? oops.). I really like lawyers. Actually, that was my dream before. And I'm not sure if I still dream of being one in the future. Ewan ko ba, gusto kong mambara. Haha! Bully! I like lawyers because for me, they seem to be smart and creative people. Creative because they can make things go around their explanation. Smart because they are able to make such creative explanations to make a wrong thing right. Whoops...bad yon ahh. Haha! Anyway, gano'n talaga. The bad men are free because of good lawyers.

But if ever I'll be one someday, will I allow myself to defend bad men? Woot...let's see.

But Pisay is leading me to a new path--Sciences. Di ba di allowed ang Law sa Pisay? Hayy...

Whichever I will take in the future, I wish to be happy in it. I'm in between doing what's best for my family, myself...or my dear country.

ang muling paglipad ng isip ko

2005-12-10T19:19:00.000+08:00

as i was watching the tv (for the first time in many weeks), the commercial about another movie from star cinema showed up. it said

"kung sabihin kong mahal kita, happy ending na ba 'yon?"
"hindi gano'n kasimple 'yon."

yah. of course not. syempre hindi gano'n kasimple yon. oo nga naman, janella. you're dreaming again. sure nga naman ba ako na ganon din ang nararamdaman niya sa akin? pano kung hindi? siguro nga hinde. but the times we shared makes me feel that way, na baka gusto rin niya ako. pero hindi. siya pa eh madami namang pwede sa kanya. pero i really feel na baka nga gusto rin niya ako. baka nga mabait lang talaga siya sa lahat na ininterpret ko in a different way. sa bagay, ganun din naman ako sa lahat (well, i try to be like that to all) hayy... ano ba janella, wake up! asa ka pa sa kanya. kami'y langit at lupa. ang hirap niyang abutin. kaya nga i'll sing sandalan at lagi mo na lang akong dinedma for that person. tama yung lyrics na yun eh para sa kanya. "mahal na mahal ko siya, pero di niya lang alam." at isa pa, handa akong maging sandalan niya. basta andito lang naman ako eh para sa kanya, di niya lang alam yun. ayoko siyang umiyak. pinapaiyak lang siya ng iba. wag na sana siyang umiyak. hayy. kung pwede lang kase sana eh. kaso hindi. hinding hinde. at ngayon, dahil sa christmas break, matagal tagal ko rin siyang hindi makikita. "sana ngayong pasko, ay maalala mo pa rin ako." "my idea of a perfect christmas...is to spend it with you." maybe i should stop myself na from this dreaming. tama na ang pag-asa sa wla, sa alam ko namang malabong mangyari. tama na, napapaiyak lang tuloy ako...sa pag-iisip na di naman siya mapapasa-akin.

hayy...

christmas break: the good thing and the bad...

2005-12-10T18:33:00.001+08:00

yehey!...break na...hahaha...at huhuhu...

3 quarters down...one to go.

hayy. ang bilis. ano ba yan...christmas break na. parang kailan lang eh nagpaparty kami ng jade 08...tapos kahapon lang, ung adelfa party tapos paskorito. woah. ayokong magbreak! pero gusto ko rin. eh kase...mamimiss ko ang adelfa!!! wahh! pero the good thing is...no more cramming...no more sleppless nights...and no more stress. hehe, natulog nga ako ng 12 hrs kagabi eh. pero ok magcram basta kasama ko ang adelfa. hindi lang naman dahil sa adelfa ako nalulungkot. di ko na kase makikita si.... and besides, i'll miss BULLYING. hahaha! hindi ahh. sila nga nangbubully sa akin eh.

masaya naman yung adelfa party. we did not have any program...and that's the good thing actually. cause we can do anything we want to, hehe. nag ps2 kami at kumain. tapos exchange of gifts. yun lang...haha. well actually we had another bonding activity after. we had to do the stress activity for health in the afternoon. haha. ang saya din! nagcharades kami...tapos nag ice ice water game sa ulan! oh yeah! tapos dapat basketball eh. kaya lang may activity sa gym sa taas. pero natuloy din naman after...pero basa na ang mga damit namin...hehe. masaya magbasket sa ulan ahh! haha...kaya lang madulas... but if you're enjoying the person you're with...hayy..kahit umuulan, sige! hehehe...

wahh! i'll miss that person. hayy...this week was our perio week. masaya naman pero not the tests...especially soc sci at physics! waahhh. this week was nice kase...secret..hehehe...ewan. daming parties. hehe... well actually ung pinaka masayang days eh nung thursday at friday. if only thursday and friday were forever... lalo na pag kasama mo ung... hehehe. astig.

sige...dito na muna...i want to post another...post.. haha...=)

puwede akong sandalan...basta ikaw...

2005-11-01T13:25:00.000+08:00

Sandalan by 6 Cycle Mind

"Kanina pa kita pinagmamasdan
Mukha mo'y di maipinta
Malungkot ka nanaman
Kanina pa kita inaalok
Ng kwentuhang masaya
Para sayo'y, balewala

Sandali lang,teka lang
May nakalimutan ka
Di ba't puwede mo kong iyakan?

Sige lang sandal ka na
At huwag mong pipigilan
Iiyak mo lang ang lahat sa langit
Iiyak mo lang ang lahat sa akin

Nandito lang ako maghihintay
Lagi mong tatandaan
Di ka naman nag-iisa
Nandito lang ako makikinig sayo
Sa buong magdamag sa kin, di ka balewala..."

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this song is uber nice...gad...i fell in love with this song...ngek.

deh...well the lyrics appeals to me a lot. unang beses ko palang narinig ito eh, nagustuhan ko na... i first heard (and saw) it at myx. oh, and there's another song i liked too.."tumatakbo" by mojofly. well the latter's overall quality is really cool. however, the song for me is for desperate people...hehehe. desperadong magkaboyfriend or girlfriend. i liked 6 Cycle Mind's lyrics more. bagay na bagay sa situation ngayon...hehe. anyway, if i were to say this, i would say this to...to...to...to all of my friends! hehehe...kala kung ano na eh. bleh :p well i have a certain person to say these lines. (yikee) ngek. asa. hehe.

anyway, ang daming gagawin...hayy. sheesh. i only have 2 days to do all the requirements asked by the injustice league of teachers. hayy...

feeeld treeep

2005-10-30T22:51:00.000+08:00

haha...katatapos lang nung field trip namin kahapon... pumunta kami sa subic! hehe... anyway, although mas walang thrill yung trip di tulad nung last year...masaya naman. at least this year di na naging brown yung shoes ko di ba? hehe...

okei... madaming kakaiba ngunit memorable na mga nangyari kahapon... ung iba nakakainis, ung iba masaya. nakakainis kahapon kasi umuulan! the night before, magdamag yatang umuulan hanggang nung umaga. pero nung mga hapon na yata, hindi na...pero maputik pa rin noh. nung umaga, sa bus, aun, kumain lang kami...hahah. tapos nung nagstop over, dahil pasaway kami, pumunta kami sa starbucks at bumili doon. hehe... doon naman sa JEST camp, di ko masyadong na enjoy kase galing na ko dun eh. i was waiting for the jungle tour pero wala naman pala. anyway, nagpunta na lang kami sa slide for life...pero di ako nagtry...hehe... at di rin naman umabot lahat ng adelfa-camia people kase time na daw! nagmamaktol tuloy si sarah...

pero yung pinakamasayang part ay yung naligo kami or nagtampisaw...(kasi mababaw lang). haha! binubully nila ako...hehe...pinagbabato ako ng sand... binato ako nina angela, sarah at edi!... bully kase...ahaha...joke. tapos nagraracing kami nina chan chan ng tsinelas...hahahaha! ako nagpasimula noon eh...hehehe...ang isip bata hahaha. tapos madami pa kaming kalokohan na naisip gawin doon. naghukay ba naman sila giselle at barci sa ilalim para daw may mabiktima?! haha..pero unfortunately, walang nabiktima...hehe. basta masaya! masaya! masaya! hehehe...

at eto pa...eh di syempre, nabasa kami. ngayon, walang lavatory or anything!!! dito na test ang aming pro-ness! haha, kanya kanyang bihis sa bus! grabeh, si sarah, tinanggal ung curtain para pantakip...at yun din ang ginawa ko... pero effective, nakapagbihis ako...hehehe... tapos ung ibang boys! ahhh! nagbibihis sa likod ko??!! omaygad...

pagkatapos ng mga nakaririmarim na nangyaring yun...umuwi na kami! yehey... nung pauwi sa bus...astig... nagkwento ng ghost stories si kuya!...haha,andaming natakot grabeh...hehe. si honey nga eh, nagrosary pagkatapos nung kwento...ahaha. tapos, sinuggest namin na magjoketime na lang. ayun, syempre lahat ng kacornihan ng adelfa eh inilabas! hahaha!...
for example...

anong element daw ang...

maliit?...lithium
panggabi lang?...nitrogen (nightrogen)
mahilig sa geom?...sodium (sogeom)
friendly?...hydrogen (hi-drogen)
makikita sa kusina?...zinc!
may mata?...iodine! (eyeodine)
nakakakita?...cesium! (see-sium)
matanda na?...gold!

oh di ba...nagpapababa ng I.Q.?...haha...corny pero masaya!!!! =)

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anyway...some pics na ninakaw ko kay sir martin at mam dacs...hehe.

the adelfa-camia bus...and the best section duo!...hehe.

the bus! nasa likod ako...ahh!...tinakpan ako...hehe.

ganda ng shot na 'to... parang...hehe.

eto na talaga ang masasabi kong...PRO-NESS!!!...hehehe.

PRO din 'to pero mas pro ung nauna...

hail hale

2005-10-12T20:34:00.000+08:00

"Sarcastic smiles and fake hellos
We try to hide but always
Leave an open door behind
To escape from reality
It felt so sure but we said no
We’re throwing lies at someone
We don’t know, we don’t know
From this reality
Why can’t we risk our lives
For something that we can’t deny
We try to run from something
We don’t know, we don’t know
Is this reality?
Why are you crying?
I feel so sorry
I feel so sorryFor me… "

ooh yeah. that line is one of my favorite. well actually, nagiging favorite ko ang isang kanta or line if i am able to relate to it...hayy...

anyway, speaking of hale (which is the topic of this post), the line is a part of their song "Life Support."

you know, i could say that hale is one of the best bands we have around here. and the fact that they are our own, it really makes us proud. i'd say that all their songs are great. they're high quality...because british inspired. anyway, we filipinos should still be proud for what this band has achieved. they have shown what filipinos can actually do.

go hale!

i actually like all their songs...hehe.

at last.

2005-10-08T11:46:00.000+08:00

finally.

yes finally. after the sleepless nights of doing projects, cramming homeworks and studying for tests, we have finally finished the 2nd quarter.

sheesh. ang bilis. it seemed like it was just june, but now, half of the school year has passed. truly, time is fast at pisay, especially when you're always in a rush like us. but more than that, you never realize how much time passes by if you are happy and enjoying with your friends and classmates and school. hmm...school? enjoyed? hehe. well for others in Pisay may say that it's very hard. yes it's hard, but fun. i don't know why i liked pisay this much. in my old school, i always wanted for the weekend to come. and surprisingly, here in pisay, i hate weekends. haha! kase mas madaming gagawin pag weekends!...but aside from that, i do not like weekend because i'm gonna miss school, my classmates and...

speaking of school, our perio had just finished. yehey! grabeh. ang hirap ng chem, algeb at geom. actually, i know my score in chem na...and it is so low. hayy. bakit ba ganyan ang buhay. oh well, totoo namang life is not fair. how can it be? eh di sana, pantay lahat ng tao. i feel like i'm not going to be a DL anymore. my grades are suddenly failing. uhh. 2nd year is just so hard. di na ganon kadaling maka DL. you really have to study hard. you should not sleep. and lastly, you should be intelligent. but unfortunately for me, i'm not intelligent. before, i believed that di kailan madadaan sa katalinuhan ang lahat. but just this time, i proved it wrong. 'trying hard' was never enough for 2nd yr. dito sa year na toh, kailangan matalino ka talaga. mas natatalo pa nga yata ng mga matatalino ung mga masisipag. ewan ko ba, i've given my best, but my best was never enough. di ko na yata maabot ang pangarap ko. i think i just have to live to the truths na i'm not intelligent and therefore i can't reach the top. minsan nga iniisip ko kung "ano na kaya kung nasa SSA pa rin ako? siguro di ako hindi ako naghihirap ng ganito--sa isip at sa puso."

hayy.